Oh wow! I can’t believe that it’s been a year since I’ve started this blog. Congrats self for keeping up and for being able to continue.
Anyway, I wanted to talk about my recent job interview wherein I do actually like the position that I’ve applied for and I’m hoping to get that “you’ve been accepted” text/call. I feel like I did a good job but I don’t know since I haven’t been contacted yet. I really wanted that position since it’s related to my course and I do think that I’ll be able to learn a lot about Online stuffs through it.
Honestly it’s not that I’m always rejected to all my interviews, I did pass in some it’s just that I’m not really fond of the position that I’m offered in. You might be wondering why did you even apply if you don’t want the position? I applied in different companies for different positions to familiarize myself on how an interview goes, so that if I applied for a position/company that I really like, I would be more confident in answering questions especially in english.
I guess that’s all for this anniversary blog. I didn’t get to write much since I wasn’t able to plan the topic that I’ll talk about, but if anything comes to mind within the day, I would post more.
You know what scares me the most after graduating? Being unemployed. Why? Because I know that I’ll be unappreciated, they will see me as a person with no dream or vision. But what they don’t see is that I’m trying to do things at my own phase, trying to keep it calm, trying not to overwhelm myself with doing a lot of things all at once. But the people around me keeps pushing me to go faster than my own phase. They don’t understand that I’m in the process of accepting the change that happened in my life, I’m still adjusting to life after college, I’m not the kind of person who can easily adapt to changes.
During my freshmen year in college, I thought that I would be able to escape being look down upon. Well, I guess I can never really escape that do I? I will always be the dreamless, lazy, careless and insensitive child.
Do you know how badly I want to open up to someone and tell all these things that’s been bothering me. It’s just that I don’t want to look dramatic or overacting in their eyes that I choose to keep silent and write about it, rather than tell someone. I guess it does help, at the moment.
I’m not yet ready but they don’t see that, do they?
I wanted to be a teacher but they said that there’s no growth in there and it pays little. I wanted to wait and find the job that I think will suit me more but they said to apply to a certain job because it pays more.
I feel like I’m making the same mistake as I did before entering college, study any course just to have a degree. Find job just to have a job. I am the type of person that takes time in deciding the things that I want to do. Stop pressuring me, stop rushing me, it hinders me to make right decisions.
I am lost don’t make me take any direction just so I can move. Let me find my own path, in my own pace, on my own.
I can’t believe that I’m already out of college, it feels like it’s only yesterday when I first enter the classroom during my freshmen year and now I’m already unemployed, it’s a bittersweet experience. Bitter since I’m going to be leaving the place where I stayed most of my life to start the next chapter, wherein I have to be independent and stand for myself. Sweet because all the studying for the exams, the late nights preparing for a presentation, the procrastination and the rushing for the deadlines has now paid off. Graduating was one of my greatest achievement so far.
Honestly though, until now, I still feel lost but I try to live by going along with the waves until I figure out what I want to do. If that’s a good decision, I don’t know. I guess we’ll see what happens.
Every ending is the beginning of another something (what? hahaha). I’ve already finished my 500 hours of internship in ABS-CBN. I would say this was a great experience and possibly one of the most memorable one. As what I’ve mentioned before, I never thought I would be able to become an intern to a very well-known company moreover a TV network. Seeing celebrities and all was a great experience but other than that, I would say that the things that I’ve learned and the knowledge that I’ve gained throughout the program was more valuable. It’s an incredible experience. I mean, photocopying, printing, compiling documents where the “common” internship experience and my sister told me that her college friends, who also did their internship in the network, told her that the only benefit that they get is that they saw celebrities, but their workload was mostly photocopying things and they didn’t get to be that expose in their course-related work. But that’s not the case for me, since we were ask to present proposals, we were involved in a brainstorming activity, we do product shots and we also handled online inquiries and events which is related to my course (Marketing).
I was really excited in finishing this internship since that would mean that I’m literally a “Grad waiting” student but separation anxiety sure strike hard. I can’t seem to leave the office and I find it hard to say goodbye. I remember looking back while walking away, I remember the happy faces through the glass door, I remember the laugh as they told me the iconic words that they always use to tease me and I remember holding back the tears that really want to leave these eyes. The hugs, the words of encouragement, the words of appreciation for what we’ve done for the past months might’ve been just words for them but I really took it to heart and it gives me motivation to strive harder. Congratulating us for our upcoming graduation, wishing us luck for our future endeavors it makes me feel important even if we’re just an intern.
I haven’t been writing/posting in here for a long time. I’m not really that busy though. It’s just that I’ve already start my internship last week and the week before that was dedicated in getting all my requirements and enrollment. I told myself that I’ll follow a schedule of when to write but then I find it hard to find time. I remember when I first started I post a schedule of when I’ll update this blog but I didn’t even follow it. So I think I’ll just keep my schedule to my self and silently follow it.
Going back to the things that I’ve been doing for these past few days. I already start my internship last Tuesday and so far I’ve been enjoying it. I get to meet new people and I love the fact that it didn’t take that long for me to find someone to hang out with — I usually couldn’t hang out with people that I just met –. I get to see celebrities too since I’m doing my internship at a TV network.
I also get to experience the harsh reality of commuting. I actually don’t have any problems in transportation when I’m going to the office but when I’m going home it’s a disaster! My first two days of going home from the office was a nightmare. All the jeepney’s are full so I have to wait for a long time to get a ride. The second day of commuting from the office to home was probably on the top 5 of my most embarrassing moments! I rode a full-looking jeepney because the driver said that it still has seats for passengers so I tried to sit — during the process of me finding a sit, the jeepney already move — but you see, I TRIED to sit, the problem was there’s no place to sit so I keep pretending that I was okay and I’m sitting when the truth is I’m using my leg power to survive! But I couldn’t hold on for that long since I’m already tired from of my internship so I’ve decided to just sit on the jeepney floor which is more comfortable than pretending to sit. The lady sitting across from me looks like she wanted to do something so that I can sit, she kept asking a guy passenger to give me some space but I told her that it was okay. During that time I couldn’t look up at all because of the embarrassment. Anyway, I already found an alternative so that I can go home comfortably although it’s a little bit pricey but atleast I wouldn’t be having that kind of trouble again.
On a different note, I’ve been addicted to online shopping nowadays I just love the feeling of waiting and receiving a package. So all in all I ordered 5 books, a bag, a watch, and a planner. Is that too much? I wanted to buy more but you know, money.
Another thing that I did last week was to get a PSA copy of my birth certificate since I needed it for my passport appointment. I actually have the NSO copy of my birth certificate but I read online that the NSO copy is not accepted anymore and that they only accept the PSA copy.
I guess that’s all for today’s post. I need to edit my internship narrative report now so byeee…
Yesterday, my friends and I decided to go out and enjoy as a present to ourselves for the stressed and school work problems that we’ve overcome over the semester. And this will be the last time that we’ll be able to do so since the group will probably be busy in our own way because we will now be starting our internship.
Anyways, we’ve decided to go for a swim and since it was planned for a long time — We’ve been planning this get-together swimming since August? I think. — we expected that the group will be complete on the said event. Honestly, when we were on the planning stage, I really don’t have any intention to go swimming, I’ve been making excuses so that my friends would change the plan to something else but it was not successful so I’ve decided to just go. But if you think that the plan will go smoothly just because it was discussed for a long time, of course you’re wrong. Because a group will always have that missing-in-action friend or friends that you would rarely find in a group-planned events.
But anyway, even with a 2 missing people in our group we were still able to enjoy the activity. We take pictures and videos underwater — shoutout to my friend, Em who keeps chatting me for the copy –. We played games, sing songs, and basically tire ourselves out. It actually feels like a family vacation during summer. We had a lot of foods that we actually need to take some home to avoid spoilage. It was really fun.
It might be the last time that we got to hang out as students since the next one would probably be our graduation, and I plan to treasure this moments as a really wonderful memories that makes my college life more memorable.
Last week, I realized that I won’t be able to use my school uniform anymore and it makes me emotional. It’s shallow but I’m thinking that if with just a school uniform I already feel emotional and on the verge of crying what more during graduation? I feel like I’ll cry my heart out.
Anyhoo, I’ll definitely miss my college friends. You guys are one of the reasons why I didn’t give up this course even though I’m super close to shifting. You definitely make me enjoy my decision of staying and you bring out the most beautiful memories of my college life. I hope in the future we can still find time to bond and hang out with each other even with our busy schedules. I wish that you guys will find happiness, success and contentment with your different endeavors. I want to say Happy G_________ but I’ll probably say it when that time comes.
I love you guys! mwah!
Finally! I’m down to my very last college exam. After this sem, I wouldn’t be going to school that often since I’ll start my internship this coming semester.
Thinking about it makes me emotional. It just that all my life I’ve been going to school and now thinking about me not being able to go to school, no quizzes, assignment, recitations, it’s a mix of sadness and excitement. It’s sad that another season — that I’ve been doing most of my life — of my story comes to an end but also exciting for another one will soon be starting.
*sigh* I will really miss school after graduating…