Anniversary Post?


Oh wow! I can’t believe that it’s been a year since I’ve started this blog. Congrats self for keeping up and for being able to continue.

Anyway, I wanted to talk about my recent job interview wherein I do actually like the position that I’ve applied for and I’m hoping to get that “you’ve been accepted” text/call. I feel like I did a good job but I don’t know since I haven’t been contacted yet. I really wanted that position since it’s related to my course and I do think that I’ll be able to learn a lot about Online stuffs through it.

Honestly it’s not that I’m always rejected to all my interviews, I did pass in some it’s just that I’m not really fond of the position that I’m offered in. You might be wondering why did you even apply if you don’t want the position? I applied in different companies for different positions to familiarize myself on how an interview goes, so that if I applied for a position/company that I really like, I would be more confident in answering questions especially in english.

I guess that’s all for this anniversary blog. I didn’t get to write much since I wasn’t able to plan the topic that I’ll talk about, but if anything comes to mind within the day, I would post more.


Marketing Vs Selling

Marketing is knowing the needs and wants of the consumer and producing goods/services based on that knowledge.

Selling is the action of exchanging goods/services for a price — oftentimes money –.

Basically Marketing is a way to know what to sell, where to sell, who to sell to, how will you sell and how much will you sell it. It provides goods and services at the right place, right price, in the most convenient way possible. Marketing’s main goal doesn’t only focus on sales and profit but also customer satisfaction.

Why did I write this? I was asked to differentiate marketing and selling in my job interview this morning, and that’s my non-verbatim, thought out, paraphrased answer which I didn’t get to say. Since the answer should be spontaneous and I didn’t have that much time to think about these words and just to vent out my disappointment, I wrote it.

Today’s Feedback from the interview: From you need to improve your communication skills to you have a good communication skills. I’m satisfied!

Life after college

You know what scares me the most after graduating? Being unemployed. Why? Because I know that I’ll be unappreciated, they will see me as a person with no dream or vision. But what they don’t see is that I’m trying to do things at my own phase, trying to keep it calm, trying not to overwhelm myself with doing a lot of things all at once. But the people around me keeps pushing me to go faster than my own phase. They don’t understand that I’m in the process of accepting the change that happened in my life, I’m still adjusting to life after college, I’m not the kind of person who can easily adapt to changes.

During my freshmen year in college, I thought that I would be able to escape being look down upon. Well, I guess I can never really escape that do I? I will always be the dreamless, lazy, careless and insensitive child.

Do you know how badly I want to open up to someone and tell all these things that’s been bothering me. It’s just that I don’t want to look dramatic or overacting in their eyes that I choose to keep silent and write about it, rather than tell someone. I guess it does help, at the moment.

I’m not yet ready but they don’t see that, do they?

I wanted to be a teacher but they said that there’s no growth in there and it pays little. I wanted to wait and find the job that I think will suit me more but they said to apply to a certain job because it pays more.

I feel like I’m making the same mistake as I did before entering college, study any course just to have a degree.  Find job just to have a job. I am the type of person that takes time in deciding the things that I want to do. Stop pressuring me, stop rushing me, it hinders me to make right decisions.

I am lost don’t make me take any direction just so I can move. Let me find my own path, in my own pace, on my own.

What’s offending and what’s not?

In my group of friends it has been a constant debate of what’s offending and what’s not. They say, if it’s below the belt, it’s offending but the question is what’s below the belt?


Sometimes the most simple jest can hurt some people. So when can we say that the joke has gone too far? In my perspective, we can never know. Arguments, misunderstanding and miscommunication is and will always be a part of our socializing, we get to interact with different kinds of people that’s why we are prone to this kinds of conflict.


So what do we do about it? As for me, if ever I was offended, I shrugged it off and just go along with the joke. I don’t make a big deal out of it but I do rant about it in my writings.

LANY Appreciation Post

Okay, first of all, I’m not joining the bandwagon–just stating, since there are a lot of people who criticizes late fans of a certain group/band just because they started liking them after they became mainstream.– Come on people! can we stop labeling everything. Can’t we just like the things, music, movies, books etc. without being criticized? Anyway, that’s not the topic that I want to talk about.

I first heard LANY through one of my favorite Wattpad author, Jonaxx. She was asked online on what LANY song is her favorite and she answered ILYSB. Of Course, I searched for it and fell in love with the band eversince, I even promoted them to my friend Cat, and found out that she also love them.

I supeeerrr love their lyrics and how they incorporated the music to match the song, and Paul’s voice just makes it better. I love listening to their songs when I’m feeling sentimental. I also find it easier to write something when listening to their songs.

Paul’s voice is really soothing and it brings so much feels, and when you listen to the lyrics you’ll definitely feel the emotion, for example in ILYSB, when he sang the Oh my heart hurts so good, I love you Babe, so bad  part, You would feel the love. I’m not sure about you but for me it really hit me in the feels and it makes me formulate an image of falling in love with the right person. I don’t know, maybe it’s just me.

When I’m looking for inspiration I usually listen to songs, and LANY will probably be next to Mayday Parade/Jason Lancaster on my list of singer/band to listen to.

If you want to listen to LANY’s songs I’d suggest to search “LANY playlist” on Youtube.

Before ending this post, let me tell you my current top 5 LANY songs. Other than my top 1, the others were like interchanging with their ranks.

My favorite LANY song would be HURTS. I am so in love with the lyrics of this song especially the I was just fine, if we didn’t work. But now, that you’re mine. The more I love, the more it hurts part. I find it romantic and heartbreaking at the same time. I think Paul’s way of expressing the song adds up to its charm.

My top 4, since it’s in no particular order I’ll just list it down.

  • ILYSB – of course the first ever LANY song that I’ve heard would be in my list. My favorite part of this song was the Iconic Oh my heart hurts so good, I love you Babe, so bad part I don’t know why I typed that again when I already typed it above hahaha</small>
  • Pink Skies – this was the song that I would listen to when I’m inside a car on a way to somewhere looking at the open window and seeing the skies, the trees, the mountains and feeling the wind hit my face.
  • Super Far – this song is also on my “on-the-road/travel vlog songs” playlist. What I like in this song was the happy vibe that it has even though the lyrics wasn’t that happy. It has that contradicting charm.
  • Current Location – just like ILYSB and Hurts I love the lyrics of this song especially the Fly back to me, come back to me then stay with me line.


That’s all for my LANY Appreciation Post. If you’ve come this Super far (pun intended. sorry) on my post (and even if you didn’t) Thanks for reading!

New Year’s… (Late, I Know)

It’s been a while since the last time that I’ve written(post) anything. Busy? Not. I wouldn’t consider myself busy, just preoccupied with my internship. Anyway, it’s already 2018 and I just want to talk about my plans this year (kinda like a New Year’s resolution).

First. Health. I want to consult an opthalmologist, I wanted to take care of myself more this year.

Second. Adulting. Trying to lool for a company so that when I graduated, I already have a lot of prospect companies to apply to.

Third. Adulting Part II. I want to be more independent this year. Since I would be graduating, I wanted to be less dependent to my parents and my sisters. I want to be able to stand by myself.

Fourth. Unwind. I hope this year I would be able to find time to unwind and relax. I guess you can call this soul searching. I feel like I needed this one the most. I really feel lost right now and I wanted to find myself.

Fifth. Improve my attitude. I know this will take time but I have 12 months to cover this plan, right? I want to be more confident. They say (or I’m making this up) confidence is a woman’s beauty. I wanted to be confident in myself that I would have the courage to face people without embarrassing myself because I can’t even speak. Not just being confident, I also want to stop being judgmental and you know all those attitudes that I don’t like seeing in other people. And me having that kind of attitude makes me a hypocrite, right?

Sixth. Happiness. I know the negative side of things will always be there, life is not always bright and the world is full of pessimism but I wanted to be the person who will be optimistic, in this world full of negativity. I know that there will come a time where I will feel really bad and sad about certain things but I want to appreciate the happiness more than the loneliness. Life is full of uncertainty, but let’s count the bliss, not the sorrow.

I guess that’s all for my first ever 2018 blog post. I hope for more good days and even if it’s not, let’s make every day worthwhile.

Edit: upon checking, I saw that this is not my first ever 2018 post. stupid me 😂😂. 


I admire you for holding up too well. You’ve fought well. Despite the pain, you managed to last long. It must be hard acting like your okay when you’re definitely not. Trying to be strong for others when you yourself can barely stand.

You did great. You’ve worked hard. You’ve hold on long enough to be an inspiration. I hope that you’ve found the serenity that you’re looking for.

You showed us colors when you’re world is black. You’ve shone light despite your own darkness. I guess you’ve fed the black dog too much, in the end it gets greedier that it swallows you instead.

You’ve done a good job fighting. I know it’s too bad that you didn’t get to achieve your happiness, but I guess it’s time for you to stop reaching for it. You’ve suffered enough so rest now, Jonghyun.

It’s hard to accept that we have to say goodbye but if saying goodbye will bring you peace, I will accept it with a heavy heart.

But if you want me to smile, I’ll smile for you.

You did well. You’ve worked hard. I’ve said it a lot of times, you have done a very great job

Rest in Peace, Jonghyun.