Lies, Deception, Betrayal

Why do people lie?

You do good deeds to them but what do the repay you with? Betrayal. How can people have the audacity to deceive those who doesn’t deserve it. How can people who you trust so well, befriended for a long time do cruel things at your back while showing kindheartedness in front of you. Then in the long run twist the story and make you the villain.

Adults, how dare you teach children manners, respect, honesty and integrity when you do not even understand the meaning of it? How dare you tell us that “Honesty is the best policy” when you’re showing us lies, deception and betrayal? How dare you tell us the story of the “Little red riding hood” when you’re showing us the wolf wrapped up in human clothing? How dare you make us believe in fantasies and fairytale then break us with the harshness of reality? How dare you mold us to be an upright person then corrupt our minds when we grow up?

How does humans have the most inhumane characteristic in the world?

Greediness, as a child I was taught that it was never a positive attitude. I was told that kindness to others is a virtue. Growing up, I realized that the words “kindness to others” means being nice in front of them then stabbing them at the back.

I’m nearing the responsibilities and problems that the adults have been facing but I hope to not be like the ones that I’ve mentioned above, I don’t want to be like the ones that I’ve mentioned above.

I know, I’m not really a good person. Despite having a religious name, I have my share of bad deeds but I plan to live by with Tablo’s words,

“Robbing someone’s smile and putting it on your face doesn’t make you happy”. 

Life isn’t just about me. Eternal Life is living for others.

 

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Life is worth living!

I know that I’m in no way authorized or rightful to write or talk about this certain topic, as I’ve never experience and knew no one who had experience this psychological melancholy that they call depression. But I do feel the need to do something and help raise people’s awareness regarding this topic.

Recently, depression is one of the most talked about issue in the Philippines. From a very well-known personality’s opinion about it, continuing to the world mental health day and it’s saddening that because of this, lives are being taken away from their love ones.

As what I’ve written earlier, I personally have no 1st or 2nd hand experience about this issue. I grew up to be a happy-go-lucky, go with the flow, enjoy life person. I mean I do overthink occasionally, but over the time I tend to forget about my problems and move on, though I remember posting here about my frustrations in life but yeah I do tend to not think about it anymore after expressing/writing about it — one of the reasons why I write –.

So even though I’m inexperienced I do hope that you’ll take this blog post seriously since mental health is not something to be taken lightly. Though I may sound ignorant with whatever I’m going to write in here, I hope that I may be of help to someone — who happens to stumble upon and read this post — that’s experiencing depression.

I won’t talk about how you can overcome it, since I myself wouldn’t know how. But I just wanted to be here for someone who feels or believe that no one will ever listen to them, or no one cares or that they don’t matter because someone will listen, someone will care and you matter. It might sound cliché but it’s true.

I’m posting this to support and that hopefully I can be of help with the little things that I can do. To let you know that someone out there is willing to lend their hands (and ears), willing to listen and someone who cares. The world is huge, You will be able to find someone who is zealous to be your anchor. They may be near or far from you physically but they care so please do not shut yourself off of people who are willing to be there for you.

Life is beautiful. Remember the joy, the good things. Your favorite things, your favorite books, scent, your favorite person. Isn’t it wonderful? I know you might feel that dying would be the best solution since you already feel dead inside but I want to tell you that there are a lot of great things out there that will make you feel and love living.

I will list down songs in here and if you ever feel down, left out, alone and unloved. Please listen to these songs, close your eyes and let the lyrics speak to you.

1. Life is beautiful – The Afters
2. The Words I would say – Sidewalk Prophets
3. By your side – Tenth Avenue North
4. You are loved (Don’t give up) – Josh Groban
5. Blessings – Laura Story
6. Gold – Britt Nicole
9. Shadowfeet – Brooke Fraser
10. Skyscraper – Demi Lovato
11. Fight Song – Rachel Platten
12. Life is worth living – Justin Bieber

And if you ever need someone to talk to, the Philippines has a “Depression and Suicide Prevention” hotline that you can call 24/7.

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If you’re not from the Philippines, HERE is a list of suicide hotlines worldwide.

You can also contact me here and on Twitter if you ever need someone to talk to. I’m willing to listen and a lot of people are too.

Be strong. Love yourself. You are precious, You are loved. You are saved.

Life is worth living and worth fighting for. You are are stronger than depression. Overcome it!

Remain strong, Philippines.

Disappointing.

The current government of this country, I’m starting to find it disappointing. I was one of the majority who put our country into this mess and yes, I’m regretting it. This is not what I expected actually. I was supportive on this “war of drugs” before, since I believe that it will help the country be crime less in the future. As you’ve noticed, during the first few months of the Duterte administration there were a lot of drug addicts who surrendered in fear of their life. And through that I see light, thinking that I made the right choice.

But then I started reading news about killings and at first I was like “They deserved it” but then I realized that they weren’t really sure if the person they killed was an addict. (And they keep on making this “naglaban” act which is — I don’t know — unbelievable?)

 

Still, I was pro-this administration. I’m still holding on, that it will help in making our country clean, although bloody. So I’m like “believe him” because I do see his care and love for the Philippines.

But you see, I don’t know what to believe anymore. I don’t know who to listen to. I don’t know what’s real or what’s not. And yes, I am disappointed with what’s happening in our country.

Although I still want to be optimistic about this administration it’s hard to find that light. But being the positive person I am, I will still hope that maybe, just maybe it will be worth it and we’ll get through this.

To my beloved country,

I’m sorry that you’re experiencing this pain but I know that you’re strong enough. This will pass and I hoped, will hope and still hoping for a better future for the Philippines.

When will I not care?

When will I not care? About how people will see me, how I would be accepted, and how others will reject me. About everything that requires acknowledgement from other people. I’m contradicting myself saying that it wouldn’t matter but deep inside it does and I don’t like it, being a hypocrite saying, writing, sharing words opposite to what I really feel because that is what I think that will be accepted by the majority, the society, the people.

I don’t usually agree with myself, I’m torn between choosing what’s right and what I want, and it’s frustrating. This is my biggest dilemma, do I follow my heart and desires? or do I follow the norms that the society injected and be ethically right?

I’m in a state of confusion. I wanted to be able to express myself freely but I’m still bound by this shackle called fear. I’m afraid that by expressing myself, people will hate me because what I think what’s right might be contradicting to them and vice versa.

So when will I stop caring? Because right now, the freedom of speech that we have is also the restriction that is limiting us to express our thoughts and ideas freely.

 

Views

People nowadays love to shame people with different perspective as them in social media. Do you think that calling them idiot, stupid and other derogatory terms make you intelligent and better?

We befriend and compliments those who share their opinions wrapped up in eloquent words with the same perspective as we have, but shame those people who have different views. We are so intelligent that we degrade other people with different opinions as us. The world is full of hypocrite and it is a fact.

We must remember that people differs from one another, we have our own mind and it is unique in its own way, so don’t impose your belief and opinions on people because it will only cause conflict. Let’s not be too judgmental about things and learn to empathize with each other.