It’s been a while since the last time that I’ve written(post) anything. Busy? Not. I wouldn’t consider myself busy, just preoccupied with my internship. Anyway, it’s already 2018 and I just want to talk about my plans this year (kinda like a New Year’s resolution).
First. Health. I want to consult an opthalmologist, I wanted to take care of myself more this year.
Second. Adulting. Trying to lool for a company so that when I graduated, I already have a lot of prospect companies to apply to.
Third. Adulting Part II. I want to be more independent this year. Since I would be graduating, I wanted to be less dependent to my parents and my sisters. I want to be able to stand by myself.
Fourth. Unwind. I hope this year I would be able to find time to unwind and relax. I guess you can call this soul searching. I feel like I needed this one the most. I really feel lost right now and I wanted to find myself.
Fifth. Improve my attitude. I know this will take time but I have 12 months to cover this plan, right? I want to be more confident. They say (or I’m making this up) confidence is a woman’s beauty. I wanted to be confident in myself that I would have the courage to face people without embarrassing myself because I can’t even speak. Not just being confident, I also want to stop being judgmental and you know all those attitudes that I don’t like seeing in other people. And me having that kind of attitude makes me a hypocrite, right?
Sixth. Happiness. I know the negative side of things will always be there, life is not always bright and the world is full of pessimism but I wanted to be the person who will be optimistic, in this world full of negativity. I know that there will come a time where I will feel really bad and sad about certain things but I want to appreciate the happiness more than the loneliness. Life is full of uncertainty, but let’s count the bliss, not the sorrow.
I guess that’s all for my first ever 2018 blog post. I hope for more good days and even if it’s not, let’s make every day worthwhile.
Edit: upon checking, I saw that this is not my first ever 2018 post. stupid me 😂😂.
Yesterday, my friends and I decided to go out and enjoy as a present to ourselves for the stressed and school work problems that we’ve overcome over the semester. And this will be the last time that we’ll be able to do so since the group will probably be busy in our own way because we will now be starting our internship.
Anyways, we’ve decided to go for a swim and since it was planned for a long time — We’ve been planning this get-together swimming since August? I think. — we expected that the group will be complete on the said event. Honestly, when we were on the planning stage, I really don’t have any intention to go swimming, I’ve been making excuses so that my friends would change the plan to something else but it was not successful so I’ve decided to just go. But if you think that the plan will go smoothly just because it was discussed for a long time, of course you’re wrong. Because a group will always have that missing-in-action friend or friends that you would rarely find in a group-planned events.
But anyway, even with a 2 missing people in our group we were still able to enjoy the activity. We take pictures and videos underwater — shoutout to my friend, Em who keeps chatting me for the copy –. We played games, sing songs, and basically tire ourselves out. It actually feels like a family vacation during summer. We had a lot of foods that we actually need to take some home to avoid spoilage. It was really fun.
It might be the last time that we got to hang out as students since the next one would probably be our graduation, and I plan to treasure this moments as a really wonderful memories that makes my college life more memorable.
Last week, I realized that I won’t be able to use my school uniform anymore and it makes me emotional. It’s shallow but I’m thinking that if with just a school uniform I already feel emotional and on the verge of crying what more during graduation? I feel like I’ll cry my heart out.
Anyhoo, I’ll definitely miss my college friends. You guys are one of the reasons why I didn’t give up this course even though I’m super close to shifting. You definitely make me enjoy my decision of staying and you bring out the most beautiful memories of my college life. I hope in the future we can still find time to bond and hang out with each other even with our busy schedules. I wish that you guys will find happiness, success and contentment with your different endeavors. I want to say Happy G_________ but I’ll probably say it when that time comes.
I love you guys! mwah!